2020

I breathe a lonely
Breath,
Shattered shards
Flow through my
Insides
Like spoilt memories
Floating down
Memory lane,
I'm drowning once again,
My lungs flooded
With past pain,
But I stay
Flailing
Fighting to
Stay afloat,
Pailing this water
from my system
Before I calmly
Overdose,
And let go

‘THE RIDERS ASSISTANT’ by APOLLUSS

Reading a sermon

Two deadly hearts,
Twisting slowly,
All my life,
I didn't know how to see,
My identity
blind led,
Through war and bloodshed,
I found peace,
I found ways to speak
The mother tongue,
Removing daggers
Like shards,
Graining against your spine,
Peircing every line
That flowed beneath
The prophets eye
I prophosise
That I will reach
The other side

‘READING A SERMON’ by APOLLUSS

2019

Dirty Dollars
Wrapped around your neck
A loose-lipped canon
Ready to explode,
Pockets bare,
My outstretched
Palms
Begging for your attention
Like market street windows
In January sales,
Your words a noose,
Hooking metighterr
For the capture
Face cold from
These window panes
Numbing me
Like novocaine dreams

I'm not a teen
No more

‘DIRTY DOLLAR$’ by APOLLUSS

2019

I pirouette on the
broken shards,
Of my broken heart,
I tap my
Oyster card
Full off insufficient
Heartache,

Plie,
En Point,
Me in the direction
Of home,
I ain't been
home in so long
I have forgotten
The fresh smell of Cassava
And hatred
Mama,
Do you hate me,
My map guides me
But your Queendom
Is guarded
I could only
Feed you
Tears of
Disappointment
Shunning me out
Stung
Like tiger balm,
Like a hot sweaty palm
Across my
Delicate Neck
More than
Making friends
More than
When my leg
Snapped like
Our connection

Demi Plie,
En face,
My youthful
eyes,
Where the sun has always
Risen,
With flamboyancy
I tapped my toes
To keep the
Smile
You surgically
Removed,
With your
Biblical
Scalpel pages
Storm clouds
Spouting red rain
Wetting my head,
Like baptism
Open psalms
In his name
I forgive you
So I'll Pirouette,
And ask forgiveness

‘THE JAZZY DANCER’ by APOLLUSS